Road Trip

What I have experienced in the last couple of days is more than just a road trip.  It's a life trip.  I said goodbye to my only daughter so she could spend the next 10 months with her Dad.  I battled with this.  Kallie's Dad originally came to me many months ago kindly asking me to consider it.  I am not going to lie... whe he first brought Kallie coming to South Carolina for nearly a year... I couldn't fathom it.  I couldn't imagine my daughter being away from me that long.  When we discussed further, we made a decision to allow Kallie to gave input on what she would want to do; with no coaxing or forcing on our parts.  Then, things started happening on their own.  We had to move out of our old house and found a place that was cheaper, closer to work and in the same school district.  It was a blessing.  The only thing is both of my kids would have to attend different schools due to the new address.  With that being said, I started thinking more about Kallie going with her Dad's.  (with some subtle hints from her... ; ) )  If Kallie was going to have to switch schools anyway, this started feeling like a good time to allow Kallie the opportunity to spend more time with her Dad.  It's what she wanted; and really what she needs in her life.  I believe in all my heart, I have made the right decision for my daughter.  I no longer thought about my own selfishness of just keeping her here for me.  My daughter deserves more and I want her to know how much I love her.  I am proud of her for having the courage to make such a drastic and adventurous change for such a young girl.  I am honored to have such a courageous daughter.  : )  I will miss her very much, but I know she is smiling and that will make me smile too.  When I dropped Kallie off, I felt this sense of calmness.  I knew she was going to be ok, but I also felt so relaxed and different than I personally have in a very long time.  I was able to actually rest my mind... just be me.  It was nice and it's been too long.  Kallie was having us put songs in a jar for her to pick to sing.  She loved the genuine audience she had and we enjoyed seeing her so happy.  Little things like cooking dinner, eating, doing dishes, coloring together, made this weekend one that I will never forget.