Well... it's been well over a month since I entered the blogging world.  In the meantime, I have been dealing with life in general and all the ups and downs that go with it.  Things have been... heavy... to say the least. I need an outlet, so you fortunate friends out there taking the time to read this have the priveledge of being my outlet.  ; ) 

I am truly at a place where I am REALLY reflecting on everything I have experienced and comparing things to where I am now.  Although I realize I have come far, and I am EXTREMELY thankful for the wonderful things/people I do have, I can't help but to also face the reality that I am not where I want to be..not who I want to be....  Alot going through my mind....the strongest thing being the hard truth in the fact that life is too short and there is never a guarantee there will be a tomorrow.  Sometimes even when you are surrounded by people you can feel so lonely.  If I am going to feel alone, I may as well focus on getting to like me a little better.  I don't want to look back and feel regret.  I want to move forward and feel content.  Working hard is my specialty and giving up is never an option, regardless of how bad I may want to sometimes.  But there are things in my life that are optional and instead of demanding to never give up for the sake of not... I am coming at a point where I know for certain, that there are things we must let go of.  It doesn't mean we are giving up.  It means we are making a change that is necessary for us to have the capability to love ourselves more than those things that seem to break us down...   Nonetheless, it doesn't make it any easier to know how necessary it may be...."I may walk slow, but I don't walk backwards..."